The Last Sanctuary

Kampungan...!!!

ANJAAAAASS...!!!

Dasar Program kuampreeet..!!
Gak jalan-jalan juga..
Uasuuu, kambeeng arab, kecoak bunting, sapi pitak, komodo cadel..!!!!

AAARRRGGHHHH.......!!!!

Sutriss awa.. Ampun dih jei....

Click

Nearly an inch away from failing to graduate on March..
due in 4 days, i have to find what's wrong with that program..
blom lagi seminar, tgl 12 batasnya... blom jg dapat "go" sign dr bapak pembimbing..

tapi untungnya gak semuanya kacau..

Pernah kan gw bilang di sini klo gw lom pernah dapat perasaan "clik" itu..
well my friend, i believe i have found that "click"...

Surprise surprise

I just met someone very interesting recently..
and
dear God, please don't let me skrew-up this time..

after effect

kangen...
but my head keeps projecting memories of that painfull week...
it's like it was trying to say "you will end-up going through those again"
my body wouldn't last another "attack", nor would my pride...

it hurts...
no more... please...

A "not so recommended" way to start a new month

Earlier this month suddenly i got a message from her, a question to be exact, a tricky one...
out of curiousity i asked "why", at first she keeps avoiding my question. it doesn't suprise me, coz usually i got ignored if i tried to ask one of these "key" question, she always did that, but then, just out of the blue she told me why...
If i know whats coming, i wouldn't asked that stupid question. But its all too late now, i guess that little piece of information just too much for me to handle, i was desperately looking a way to end the conversation. I've manage to give her a half-decent advice and doesn't even reply her last sms. After that i feel a strange emptiness in both mind and soul, it feels like getting shot in the heart from point-blank range with a shotgun.
The timing was just perfect, i was in the middle of "grid"-ing, a manual process of transfering a value of a certain point into a worksheet, almost 8k of points, yes you're read me right 8000 points. My eyes was full with dots and boxes by the time i almost done, it was 3 pm, a day after the sms, i can't sleep, i can't eat... i just wanted to go home and forget it had happened...
I guess 3 days without a proper sleep and food will break a man body, at least i did... i didn't feel it first, the next day i've even managed to get to campus and finished of the work...
It was the last thing i do, next thing i know, the achejust pounding my skull.. It gets worsen by the night, i practically chanting "astagfirullah" until i relief from the pain by putting me to sleep...
Anyway, i was hospitalized by monday, the doc said i got a typhoid fever symptoms, he said i got it, either from fatigue, but i feel it somewhat half true... i think the mental state of the person also contribute to the physical state of the body.. Well, i just been released last thursday, and being told not to exert myself...
What a way to start a new page of your youth isn't it??

Final question guys, are those stories above is one of the following:
a) a fictional
b) a reality
c) or i just exaggerate things
your choice then...

Setelah Sekian Lama

let's see..
baru ngabisin duid stengah jeti buat perpanjang stnk... 2 motor si, tapi masyaolo... gak nyangka bakalan abis sgitu..
remember kids, sebisa mungkin jangan lewat calo y, ntar kyk gw lagi, habisnya motornya d jakarta.. mo gemana lagi..

anyway, gw ngerasa lebih tenang akhir2 ini...
gak ada perasaan gundah guladig.. at least belom..
let baygon be baygon.. huehe

eh eh eh, dapat incaran baru...
nyem deh, klo umpannya digigid, akan gw gigid balik...
paket kejar tayang nih.. hahaha...

25 buoy..

OK, pertama-tama...
makasih bwat Fara ma Indro buat ngasi tau itu dari Gibran, tapi...
I DON'T GIVE A S**T ABOUT IT... yg penting pernah baca tuh kalimat, gak peduli dia mo bikin sendiri apa mo copypaste dari Gibran...

Just a news flash..
Lifetime Period gw dah lewat kmaren..
So.. mo refleksi...
kecewa.. jelas, trus mo brubah?
pengennya sih.. ada usaha g?
blom tuh.. ZOMFGWTF!!!! Just drop dead sonny...

Auch part II

kmaren baca postingan seorang rilekser... isinya kurang lebih gini (soalnya dah rada lupa, dan gw lupa dimana bacanya)...

"cinta gak akan datang klo hanya mengandalkan frekuensi bertemu dan pendekatan yang lama...
cinta adalah masalah kecocokan jiwa, jika hal itu tidak terpenuhi, maka jangankan hitungan tahun, hitungan millenia pun cinta takkan datang..."

mungkin itu juga yg terjadi sama gw... perasaan "click" itu tak kunjung gw rasakan...
apa gw juga yg terlalu memaksakan?  *sigh*

maafin juga kalau gw semakin mengecewakan, karna kelulusan gw tertunda lagi... maaf...

Deadline

*sighs* 12 hari lagi... and i can't get my work done...
will it be the end? the end of me, the end of us, the end of everything...

i guess i did it again, simply me, good at failing... damn...

milestone

1 down, 2 to go...
kmaren baru ujian komprehensif, ternyata soalnya beda jauh :(... jadi rada susah juga kayaknya buat dapet 50%... (jadi pesimis gini mau lulus november...)
Mau seminar kapan ya? minggu depan harus kebut ni, biar dikasih seminar...

minggu depan, orang itu dikasih ucapan gak ya?
i don't want to make any misunderstanding no more...
then again, i can't too often lie to myself..